Today is the day that I go for my mammogram. I can say with out hesitation that I am scared out of my mind. I was good until Sunday. On Sunday the fears started to creep into my head again, and this time I could not push them out. Today is very much the same.
Please send thoughts and prayers to us. Please pray that I finally calm down, and that the test goes smoothly. Please pray for the doctors and techs that are going to be working on me today.
I would ask that you pray for a cancer free result, but I know that is in good hands, and he will decided the path that I need to follow.
Showing posts with label Religion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Religion. Show all posts
Monday, September 17, 2012
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
How do you feel about God?
How do you feel about god? I don't know how to answer that question. It has been on my mind a lot lately.
For the last few months I have had a very negative outlook on things. We are broke and struggling every day to make ends meet, and it seems like that is the only fact I can focus on. This needs to change. When I decided that I needed a new outlook on life, I started thinking about God lately. I was brought up semi religious environment. My Grandmother is a devote catholic, and brought her kids up in the church. My mother was baptized as a protestant and not brought up in church. Because of these 2 different upbringing by my own parents, Religion was not pushed upon us, which I am forever grateful for. This has lead me to be what I call a bad catholic/Christian.
I believe in God and Jesus Christ, However I don't know if I put my whole heart into it like so many do. I find it hard to put my faith and trust in someone or something, when things are going as badly as they are currently. I know that many of you reading would tell me, now is the time to find my faith and put all my trust into the church and Christ, but I just can't do it. I feel like I am waiting on a sign from someone or something telling me this is how I need to lead my life, but will I recognize the sign when it comes my way.
Everyday is a new question for me, but for now the one thing I know is that I need to change my thoughts, and put my trust in my family and start finding the light in every day. I have a great life, yes it is hard, yes we struggle, but we love one another, and our beautiful son. We have family who loves and supports us and for that I will always be forever grateful.
For the last few months I have had a very negative outlook on things. We are broke and struggling every day to make ends meet, and it seems like that is the only fact I can focus on. This needs to change. When I decided that I needed a new outlook on life, I started thinking about God lately. I was brought up semi religious environment. My Grandmother is a devote catholic, and brought her kids up in the church. My mother was baptized as a protestant and not brought up in church. Because of these 2 different upbringing by my own parents, Religion was not pushed upon us, which I am forever grateful for. This has lead me to be what I call a bad catholic/Christian.
I believe in God and Jesus Christ, However I don't know if I put my whole heart into it like so many do. I find it hard to put my faith and trust in someone or something, when things are going as badly as they are currently. I know that many of you reading would tell me, now is the time to find my faith and put all my trust into the church and Christ, but I just can't do it. I feel like I am waiting on a sign from someone or something telling me this is how I need to lead my life, but will I recognize the sign when it comes my way.
Everyday is a new question for me, but for now the one thing I know is that I need to change my thoughts, and put my trust in my family and start finding the light in every day. I have a great life, yes it is hard, yes we struggle, but we love one another, and our beautiful son. We have family who loves and supports us and for that I will always be forever grateful.
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