I have no title

Well it is true. I have no title for this blog post. I am not entirely sure where this post is going to go either. Great you say, sure, then I shall carry on.

Oh I know. I am going to blog about blogging. I am technically a blogger, i will fully admit I am a terrible blogger. I and not too funny, I am not a speller, and I sure in hell don't have anything important to say. So maybe I am not a blogger. Maybe I am just someone who writes things down so she doesnt' forget. Kinda of like a grocery store list.

Where was I going with this again? oh Blogging... I love blogs, I love the stories I read. I don't feel alone when I read your stories. I read the stories of how you kid hit you with vomit on the car ride home, or how your son's baseball bat discovered it liked your cheek, and I realize I am not alone! That happened to me too! At that moment I don't feel like a bad parent anymore.

So Thank you bloggers, for making me realize that CPS might not be at my door step in the near future.

Preschool

Since M and I are unable to afford preschool for our little man we decided that it would be in our best option to start homeschooling him.

Is anyone homeschooling their Little ones? I could use some guidance. We have looked through many online sites for information and guidance. I just can't seem to come up with how to write a lesson plan. I found a few good templates and they are helpful so far. Wish me luck I think I will need it.

Pickle will also be evaluated by Early Children's services for their preschool. It is a special school that we have in our area where Pickle would go three times a week for a half of day. They work with kids who have special needs in areas such as speech. We are hoping that he will qualify for this program since he still struggles with his speech. Our therapists are great. They come once a week and have done wonders for him, but he is starting to leave them for a loss as much as he does us. For instance he knows the word for milk and the sign for milk, but when he wants milk he will NOT use it for any reason. It is very hard on the poor boy.

Hopefully it all works out in the end. Wish us luck!

The Dream

I grew up with two working parents. My parents worked hard to provide for us. We were never without food or clothes. There was always a roof over our heads. Even though I had tow parents who were working their butts off, we sill went without many of the luxuries that many children have. That many children take for granted.

For me that one thing I always wanted but could never have was ballet. I always wanted to be a famous ballerina. Growing up I knew we could not afford it, so I never asked. Looking back on it I wish I tried. Maybe I wouldn't feel so drawn to it now if I did. I find myself each day looking at ballet blogs and pictures of ballets. Now at 31 years old, this is one of those dreams that will never become a reality. I know that I am too old to go up on Pointe. I will always have that regret and dream.

I don't want Pickle to have those feelings. I wish I could give him the world, and I know that the is going to grow up knowing that Mom & Dad don't have money. Will he grow up like I did too and be to shy to ask? I really don't want his dreams to never see reality because he was afraid to ask or I couldn't afford it. I will be the first to admit that I have looked into Adult beginner classes for ballet. What I found made me quite sad. I found that most dance schools consider the term "Adult" to mean 16+. It just doesn't seem like it would be the right fit for me. I wish Adult meant, actually Adult. I would love to take a class with people like myself. Those who are of a more "advanced" age who are just learning. A girl can dream. If you know of a place in the east valley, let me know.

My Dream

When it rains.....

When it rains it pours. That is how it goes in our home. On wed night we rushed M to the hospital with what we thought was Appendicitis. He was in a lot of pain. So all 3 of us were sitting in our local ER to find out that was wrong. After many hours in the hospital we found out, there were not entirely sure of what was wrong and needed to get another consultation . We found it was Epiploic appendagitis. Which I can say was something that I have never heard of. They are not sure why it is not getting better. Normally with time it clears up on his own and M should of been feeling some type of relief at this time, but at this time he is not. They are talking about doing exploratory surgery at this time to see if they can remove the part that is causing the pain, especially since it is effecting his appendix.
Please say a prayer for him and our family. The poor guy has been through so much in his life. He had the accident that changed his life, Surgery after Surgery, and countless procedures. I just wish he could wake up one day and be healed. Miracles do happen. Lets hope it happens for a man that deserves it.

Missing his Daddy.

We all miss you Daddy! Please get better soon so you can come home. The house is cold with out you.

Happy 2nd Birthday Pickle!!!

I want to say a very Happy Birthday to my Pickle!!!! We had his party on Sunday and Monday was the big day.

Sunday was his birthday party. Nothing big, just family and 2 very close friends. Needless to say we have a large family. We had a Yo Gabba Gabba Themed Party and I think it turned out really well. The poor boy did not sleep the entire day. Needless to say the poor guy was beat by the end of the day and so were we.

Happy Birthday Banner Out side the in-laws house

We took all of his gabba things from his bedroom and use them to help add some life to the theme.



The wall banner that we put up. I am saving this & putting it in his play room!



We Couldn't get a Gabba Cake anywhere so we got his Elmo, the next best thing for him.

Little Cake for the little man

Holding him back from taking the candles off

He loved loved everyone singing to him.

Blowing out the candles

Eating his cake

He wouldn't eat the cake until we got him a spoon!

Monday was his actually birthday, We had our 2 year baby well check appointment. He just got his flu shot. He is 34lbs and 36 inches tall. He is a big boy. After his appointment, We had breakfast with my Mother and a trip to Ikea. After the fun of shopping at Ikea we went home and just relaxed. I think we all needed some downtime. It was great weekend.

It is going to be a odd one.

Well this is going to be a odd post, Mainly because I am full of a ton of cold meds right now. What a better way to blog then full of drugs. We had a great weekend followed by a week of sick.

Friday night we went and took a nice long walk at the Mall. It was a nice trip. We got little man some pants and a a shirt that will look really nice, and are quite big so he should grow into them some what.

Saturday we went and had his 2 year pictures done and a family shot done (See Below) and then a nice lunch at Famous Dave's. I love their corn bread. It is one of my favorite things. After a nice lunch we went to see my Dad for his birthday, while Pickle played with his cousins.

Sunday was a busy day. We first went to chuck e Cheese, for the little man's first experience with a germ factory (and I think that is where we got our cold from). He had a blast. he did not quite get the games but he understood the running around part. I don't think M and I can take another trip! You need to be prepared to run a 10K in order to keep up with him. We followed by swimming and dinner at Grabbie's house (M's Mom). I think  he had the best weekend.I know we enjoyed ourselves. Too bad it was followed by some colds.

here are our pictures from the photos we had done on Sat. Hope you enjoy!

Family picture, I love his face in this one.

Family picture

Before he took off on us, he was on his way!

Sweet Boy

2 years old

The picture that went out to everyone.

Mommy and me.




Enjoy our weekend. We love comments!

House Logged

I think we are all getting a little stir crazy around here. The heat here has been insane the last few weeks. We live in a rural area out side of Phoenix, AZ, and in the summer we are looking at temps that are 115+, and lately we have been getting there. The worst part about the heat is the humidity that we have had lately. It is relentless.

Typically in the summer you stay in side, the only time you go out side is if you have to, and if you are lucky enough to have a pool. Because of this we are going crazy in the house! I am lucky enough to get out to go to work, but my poor child and husband are not as lucky. They have made a few trips to both Grandma's homes for some swimming, and out to a store here and there, but that is it. We are a one car household, and because we live in a rural area there is nothing around in a short walking distance (and short is all you can do before you die of heat stroke). I decided this week that we all need to get out of dodge!!

Due to constraints on our budget we are staying in town, but we have a full weekend planned, we are going to have Pickle's 2 year pictures done one day, Swimming at Grandmas another day, and The final part of the puzzle is a day at Chuckie Cheese (the thought of the germs alone are already killing me, but you do what you got to do and can afford). I think our little man is going to have a great weekend and I am so excited for it.

I hope everyone enjoys labor day weekend!

The best toy around!

A daily thing at our home, Cryons, and ABC Worksheets.

Weekend over

The weekends seem to keep flying by for me. It like oops they are gone. This weekend we had M's little Sister A (17 years old) over for the weekend. I have known A for many years now, and I can honestly say she has grown up to be a great person. She took the time to play with Pickle and snuggle. She watched him so M and I could get some chores done and rest for a bit. She even baked cookies with me. She is just a nice young lady and has so many qualities that I hope that Pickle has some day. She is sweet, trust worthy, honest, giving, helpful, and a has a kind soul. I can't wait to see what she has in store for us in the future!

Pickle really enjoyed his weekend with his Auntie. He cried something terrible when she left on Sunday, we made up for it though. He got to go visit on Monday! We were in town on Monday to close on the re-fi for our home, so we  stopped over for dinner. Pickle had the best time in the world. He even said Grandpa for the first time!!! It was a great weekend and I am so sorry that it is over. I can't wait to do it again.

Lets Talk about us...

You have heard about our recent ups and downs, What you haven't heard about is the story of who we are, and how we came to be. Hop on you time machine and go back 14 years to the story of us.

M and I met while we were both in high school. We met while at work at a local Micky D's. I was a manager at the time and M was crew member. He was a junior and I was a senior. I can honestly say that M was incredibly annoying. He was a pain in my butt. I don't how else to say it. I could not stand the man. He will to this day say the same thing about me. It took about a year for us to tolerate one another. One night while working late and closing the restaurant down, there was a few of us on the drive thru head sets just talking about nothing, this got M and I talking. That night he got my phone number. Don't get me wrong it took a while for us to get to the actual concept of a date, but one day I just kissed him. I knew it just had to be done. We have had our ups and downs, but no matter what we were best friends first, and we remain that way to this day.

Fast forward… We graduated high school, we started college and working life….. M was on his way to work one day, and was rear-ended on the freeway. He was hit by 4 different cars. This caused some major issues in his back. He has suffered numerous surgeries, procedures and a implant to try and help him live his life. He has severe issues with daily pain and use of legs. This accident changed both of our lives impermeability and forever, but we made it through, and that is all anyone can ask for. M will never be out of pain again, and will have monthly doctor's appointments, and yearly surgeries for the rest of his life, but he has a life and for that I am grateful.

Fast forward again… More surgeries, more doctors and a few years… We decided it was time to move forward with our lives and get married (so maybe it was not a decision more like the solution to some crazy argument). On April 1st of 2006 we were married. We had a small wedding, but a great time. This is also the time we finally moved out of our parents homes and move in together (we moved about 2 months before the big day). I have some of the best memories from those days. We didn't have a couch or table or chairs the first week or so, we had dinner on blankets spread on the floor while watching TV., we lived each day like any other, work, home, work, home, doctor, work, home, it was a nice routine and some carefree times.
After about a year of marriage we thought about starting a family. After a year of trying we had no luck, and I paid a visit to my doctor. We discovered my PCOS. We tried for a few months on clomid and still no luck, we decided it was time to go see a specialist (during all this time we were looking to purchase a home, found one, bought it and moved). After meeting with the specialist we decided to proceed with IUI's, and inject able medications. After 6 IUI attempts on our final attempt we got our little man. I don't think you would of ever say two people so excited. It took us over two years and all of our savings, but it was so worth it.

Our pregnancy was plagued from the start. I suffered from Over stimulated Ovaries (from all the fertility drugs), and was in a lot of pain for a few weeks. Once we got past that the bleeding started. Small amounts at first, and we were assured that our little pickle (yes that is what we called him in-utero) was okay. Then was day it was like dam broke, and we rushed back the hospital. At this time they discovered a complete placenta previa, and I was put on strict bed rest (only allowed up for the rest room & a Shower). The bleeding continued and a few more hospital trips, During this time they discovered the previa corrected itself and could not find the source of the bleeding. As the pregnancy progressed I ended up in pre-term labor and would be admitted again, and sent home again, the bleeding or contractions would start again and the process was the same. Around month seven they then discovered not only did my placenta move slightly again over my cervix, but I also have a vasa-previa, making this process even more complicated. It was finally decided to put me out of my Misery (Yes, I was a terrible patient. I suffer from a lot of anxiety and could not handle all of this, I was irrational, irresponsible and selfish. If I could go back and change my behavior I would). Pickle was born in perfect health at 36 weeks to the day. lbs. 7oz, and 19 inches long. It was a great day.

Fast forward…. Little man growing up… this is where this blog picks up. Our little man will be 2 in September, and is a great kid. He suffers from some pretty bad reflux, and his speech is a little slow for his age, but he is a great great kid. Always happy and smiling.

Since you were kind enough to read all of this, I will reward you with some pictures of or lives.. I hope you enjoy and comment!!!!!

So long ago, M's Senior Prom



April 1st 2006



You can't tell, but I am 2 weeks Prego at the time!! And not that is not my beer, it is M's!





Fresh out of the oven 2010



All Clean




Going home for the first time.



6 months old




with our first kid Daisy Mae





So cute







Too much jumping













First time swiming





little Crawler





baby's second Christmas







At phoenix childrens for testing on his tummy





Easter Sunday 2012



I love this one



When did Pickle become a big kid? It seems like overnight he is starting to lose the toddler and becoming a little boy. When did this happen?
Monday to Friday I am out of the house for work from 6am to 6pm, Every so often M shares a picture or two. Here is today's:
M went out to our back yard for a few minutes and left Pickle in the living room watching cartoons for a bit (you can yell at me later for letting my kid watch too much TV). He came in from out back and found this:

When did he get so big?