Monday, December 31, 2012

Happy New Year!

I wanted to wish every one a healthy and happy new year! Be safe tonight!

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

After Christmas Detox

As my headache from Christmas begins to fade, I sit back and think about how wonderful our day was. This was Pickle's first real Christmas. Yes he is 2 and has had 2 other Christmas mornings, however he was too little to understand. This year he totally got it. I wish I had the thought in my head to take pictures. Hindsight is 20/20.

Our little man was tucked into our bed around 9:30 (yes, I know that it is late, but with the day we had on Christmas eve, and having visitors staying at our house...... you know how it goes). Once he was asleep, Santa went to work. For Christmas we purchased him the Fisher Price Laugh and Learn Kitchen Table, it was pretty easy to get set up, it just took a bit of time. We also got him two baskets of food, a "taco kit", and Uno Moo. So while Daddy went to work building Santa's table for him, Mommy got to work wrapping and filling the stocking. The elves went to bed after 11.

Since little man was snuggled in Mom and Dad's bed we were able to sleep in a bit. We just failed to tell Pickle, he needed to sleep in too. Thankfully we woke up before Pickle was off our bed and running. He grabbed his beloved blue couch pillow (which is way to big for his little body) and ran out of our room. He took off right past the Christmas tree, right past his new kitchen and into our kitchen. All the sudden his came to a halt in front of our kitchen sink. The boy was lucky he didn't fall he stopped so quickly. He turned around and ran to his new kitchen. The look of wonder and shock was great. It was a memory that I will forever remember. It took some time, but he finally noticed the other gifts under the tree, and started handing them out to Daddy and myself.

While little man played with his toys, We started getting ready for the day. First we went to my in-laws for breakfast, then to my parents for lunch/dinner, and back to the in-laws for desert. It was great day. This day was the reason so many people look forward to the holidays. THE BEST DAY EVER!

Our litte tree and Pickle's gifts
Pickle's Kitchen
Too Much Christmas! Poor guy feel asleep around 5:30.

Monday, December 17, 2012

Purple Turtle?

The things that my kid says. I tell you. I don't know if he comes up with all of it on his own, or if most of it is his daddy's influence.

I am betting on the latter.

lately it is the phrase "Burple Turtle" translated to purple turtle. Believe it or not there is numerous pictures of purple turtles, and websites. Apparently he fell upon something quite popular. Look at my kid the trend setter. I hope all your kids are trend setters in their own right.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012



Yes that is all you are getting.... Well and that sentence right there, well and that one....

Oh' Bloody hell, you just got all sorts of things. That is it, my blog is shot to hell. It is all down hill from here.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012


I know I haven't talked about finances in a while on here, and that is because I try not to think too much about them. Today however is a different day. On a normal work day I leave the house at 630am and return at 530 pm. It makes for a long day. Because of this, I tend to eat breakfast and lunch here at my desk.

Well before M lost his job, it wasn't a big deal, I would bring something or if I was feeling adventures I would grab something on my way. Now things are quite different. For breakfast each day, I tend to eat a spoonful of peanut butter, and then for lunch I have a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. That is all I have. 

Today the peanut butter jar I have at my desk is empty. For most people this is no big deal. For us this is HUGE. I have just enough money to get to payday for gas. That is it. Nothing extra. So for me, there is no more breakfast. Although it was just a spoonful of peanut butter to you, to me it was a entire meal.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Dull Blog Post Here

I really don't have much this week. We had a nice quiet weekend at home. It was needed. I will leave you with pictures that Pickle took w/ my camera this weekend. Hope you enjoy!

Friday, November 30, 2012

Nights Stink

Have any of you dealt with night terrors? I am currently in a world of hurt from them. My darling sweet loving little boy has been dealing with them for months now. We have some good days and some bad.  We have changed just about everything we could. We no longer watch "scary" TV after he goes down in case he hears it, we dont' play any type of video games around him. We tightened our bed time routine.

But the terrors continue. I need some sleep. I am going nuts!!!!  HELP!

Thursday, November 22, 2012


With Thanksgiving fast approaching, I wanted to say what I am thankful for.

I am so Thankful for my family and friends. They have been with me on a roller coaster of a year with me. With out them I wouldn't of been able to get past this year. I don't think a blanket statement could tell you how I feel about my friends and family. That being said there is so much I want to say we might be here for days. Due to this, I will just leave this at I am blessed with the people in my life. Old or new, related or not.

I am Thankful for my husband. My world is not a good place with out him. Because of him I am a better person. The love and support that he shows me every day is amazing. I couldn't ask for a better person to share my life with. He makes the world a better place and the journey of life so much fun. He has been through a lot in his life, and will go through so much more, but he takes it all in stride and works his butt off.

Pickle - My precious boy. I can't tell the world how Thankful I am to have him in my life. We struggled to conceive. A battle that took 3 years, It was a emotional toll on us, but I wouldn't change it for the world. Everything went through brought us this amazing little boy. He lights up a room when ever he enters. He is always so happy, and carefree. He loves with every fiber of his being, when he smiles (and that one cute little dimple shows up) you smile. It is hard not too. He is starting to come into his own as a little man. He is losing the baby in him and growing up into a full grown boy at such a amazing pace. I will miss the little guy, but I look forward to who he will become.

S has been my close friend for many years. We have had our ups and downs, but we always find out way back to our friendship. She loves and supports me like a sister even though we arent' by blood, She loves me like a true friend should. I am so Thankful to have someone like that in my life. A true friend, with a great heart.

Most don't feel like they love their jobs, I can say that I am not one of them. I work for the most amazing people. I have found the right fit for me here. Although I work for a HUGE company, our office is a family. Most of us have been here for years. Seen one another through ups and downs. The love and support from this office is something that you don't see often. We all take care of each other and that is wonderful thing.

Last but not least, I am so Thankful for this blog. This has been a new experience for me to write a blog. I am not a writer as you can tell, but it has allowed me to share my story and experiences with others, and at the same time allowed me to process my own thoughts and feelings. Through this entire experience I have come across so many blogs that were able to help mend and open my heart. I know there are many of you who are out there reading this (I see the stats! LOL). Thank you for reading our story and allowing me to be apart of your lives.

I hope everyone has a terrific Thanksgiving. I hope your holidays are happy and safe, with all our love, The Hello Pickle Family.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012


I am sure on this blog you have seen many pictures where my son's binky is there smack dab in the middle of his mouth. How do I break this? Any tips? He currently only has it when he sleeps or finds one. Once he has it all bets are off you won't get back. Any help would be appreciated.

Because One is not enough

always happy, Esp. With a binky
No bink, but so darn cute.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Phoenix Zoo Lights!

We spent a wonderful evening on Saturday with our dear friend S and her son at Phoenix Zoo Lights. For those of you who don't live in a place that no one should live (Arizona) let me provide some details. Phoenix Zoo Lights is exactly what is sounds like. In the winter months for the holidays, the zoo decorates most of the zoo with different type of holiday lights. They have light up figures and animals all over. They also time a section of the lights to holiday music. They leave some of the animals out so you can see them as well. It is a great night!
We spent the night there, walking around looking at the lights and the animals that you could see in the dark. Our little man had the time of his life. He was fascinated by all the lights. He would oh and ah over all the different lights. When we got to the section that had the musical lights you would of thought he was in heaven. Our little man also had his first carousel ride. It was the greatest experence, that I feel like I am so lucky to have shared with him. This was a great night, If you are in the area GO! You won't regret it.

I hope all everyone has a safe and happy Thanksgiving!

Monday, November 19, 2012

New Ears!

Today's post is brought to you by: Things you never knew about us! I know that many of you are aware that M is handicapped. He has some severe back issues that cause him constant pain and weakness, because of this he is unable to work.

What You didn't know is that I have a disability myself. I am hearing impaired. I will say I am truly blessed with how much hearing I do have. I am able to hear with out assistance. It is more of matter what can't I hear. Which is a lot. Which brings me to today's exciting topic. NEW EARS! I have worn hearing aids for many years now, but I just got a new set. They are amazing. The doctor fit me with Oticon Intega 10s. The sound quality is so amazing I feel like I have so much of my life back. My last set were not so much of a hearing aid as they were something to turn up the volume of life. These are so slim and comfy. They block out certain sounds well, but at the same time allow me to hear so much more. I cried when I heard Pickle for the first time with them. I was never able to tell what he truly sounded like. It is amazing. I am so Thankful that my insurance was able to cover 100% of the cost.

We had a amazing weekend. That will have to be another post, to follow all about zoo lights. I will however post this really cute picture of a Daddy/Pickle nap.

Too cute for words

Friday, November 16, 2012

Interesting Title Here....

So I really have nothing interesting to say anymore. I just don't. To be honest with you I am not sure I have ever had anything interesting to say. So I am just going to picture bomb you.

Most of these are from the other day. We were having quite a cold spell here in Arizona (yes, it does get cold. Not like Fargo cold, but cold.), and being the great mom that I am, I dug out last years winter clothes and PJs. And shoved my son into them like a sausage (Did I really just compare my kid to pork. One these days his Daddy is going to kill me). So with out further ado, here is the little pickle.

All wrapped up
Now that I look back at the pictures it doesn't look that tight
No, wait from the back I can really start to see it.
Happy little man, a few days later, when it warmed back up and he had normal clothes back on
This is just a old picture that I found on my phone. This is my little man still in my tummy.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Happy Birthday Honey!!!!

Happy Birthday M! It is M's birthday, and what a great day it is. We celebrated his birthday on Sunday, with his family. It was a nice day and we really enjoyed ourselves.

I can say other then M's birthday we spent a nice quiet weekend at home. We are going to have a busy week ahead of us so a nice weekend was in order. I have my Audiologist today, the ENT tomorrow, and Pickle  has speech therapy tomorrow as well as Parent's as teachers. I am sure more is going to come up!

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Happy Happy Halloween

I can say that this was the best Halloween that we have ever had! This was our little man's first Halloween where is was going out. His first Halloween 5 weeks old, and last year he could barely walk, and we just came back from a wedding back east, so this is the first!

I am so proud of him. The first few homes he was terrified. He didn't know what to do and when we could get him up to the house he just looked at the people. We were lucky enough to go with my sister and brother, and all of their kids (6 kids, + Pickle), plus my mother, M's mother, and his Uncle G (M BFF). Once he got a few more houses in, he was a pro at it, and doing great, he even started shutting people's doors. I will up load the pics in a few days for you.

Hope you had a great holiday!!!!!!!!

Friday, October 26, 2012

Questions / Comments

I know there are quite a few of you out there in blog land who are reading this. I would love to hear from you. Please leave a comment and introduce yourself!! Questions are welcomed as well. Thanks!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Debbie Downer

Lately I have been a little down in the dumps. I think the stress of the last few weeks of stress have started to really get to me. With M being in the hospital, then Pickle getting sick, followed by me getting sick. I think I really need to just relax and get some fun time in. We have been struggling a lot more lately with finances and that is just not getting better. In the back of my head I keep thinking we are getting closer and closer to M getting his disability. We just turned in a butt load of paperwork to them to get a decision, but the waiting is the hardest part.

I am starting to feel like I am not doing enough for our family, but I am doing everything that I can. I have been looking into getting a second job, but I worry what effect that will have on Pickle. I am already gone for so many hours in a day, what would happen if I was gone on weekends and nights too. We ask that all of you say some prayers for us. We can really use the help.

In good news Pickle is doing great with his speech therapy. You can really see a improvement each day. He is starting to talk to us more and mimic the things that we do. Last night we played "Oh No Poor Joe!" I don't know if anyone else knows of this, but my Darling Husband did not. You say Oh No Poor Joe he has no, Insert body part here. Pickle loved every second of it. He laughed his little butt off. He continued to do it the rest of the night. He is growing up so fast on me. I can honestly say it is going by too fast and I will miss the little baby. It makes you want another little soul to love (Don't worry that is a little ways off, we have bigger fish to fry right now). All in good time.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

At a loss

I am at a loss of words to describe how these past few days have been. Trying to describe these days as hard, seems to make light of the situation at hand.

M has been doing better each day that he is home from the hospital. That is a great thing, but in the course of running to and from the hospital, work, and baby sitters, Pickle has gotten sick. Which in turn he passed on to myself. It is a typical cold that we all have been to the doctor for at this time, but there seems to be nothing we can do to comfort our little man. This morning was the first morning he has not woken up with a fever, I do believe it broke during the overnight. Please cross your fingers.

In other news, we have finally hit rock bottom when it comes to finances. At this time I can honestly say that all our accounts are at 0.00, I scared of what is to come since I don't get another paycheck until the 26th. We are lucky that we have some food in the house, but I we don't have the gas to get me to and from work. That is what scares me the most. We have been really lucky that we have had family that has been able to help us out while M waits on a response to his disability from the state. Please say a prayer for us that things will start to change for us soon.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Crazy, Hazy Days

Things have been so busy around here. M was lucky to come home on Saturday. Thank God, He is slowly recovering, getting better a little bit more each day. Since M is unable to care for our Pickle, I have had to bring him to different family members each day so I can still go to work. Friday he spent w/ his Auntie K, Sat & Sun he was with me (half at home, and half at hospital), Monday I was blessed enough to have my Mother in Law stay at our house and watch him, and Tuesday He went to spend the day with his Aunt S and his cousins. Today he is at my in-laws house with Big M and Auntie K again. We are so lucky to have family come and help us out when we need it. I can being to say how lucky we are to have family by our sides to help out.

Because poor Pickle has been tossed all around, his behavior is terrible. Has anyone experienced this? You can tell it all effecting him, but I can't change what is going on. I can not miss anymore work this year, and we can not afford to loose this job. I know that he needs a little stability, and I am hoping that I can do that starting next week, but I just don't think it is going to happen this week. It all comes down to how M feels. I hope he gets better soon.

In other news, this week my Grandmother passed (mother's mom). She has been very sick for quite some time. She is in a better place. Her services are going to be held back east over the weekend. I wish that I could go, but I just can't get those funds together. Tickets for the 3 of us were close to 1,600.00, that was just way to much and we didn't have that. I feel terrible that I won't be able to attend her services, I was not able to see her before she passed either. I just can't seem to let go of the guilt that I feel about the entire process.

I hope everyone has a better week that I did. The worst part is that it is only Wed. I still have a few more days to go.

At the park on Monday

Friday, October 5, 2012

When it rains.....

When it rains it pours. That is how it goes in our home. On wed night we rushed M to the hospital with what we thought was Appendicitis. He was in a lot of pain. So all 3 of us were sitting in our local ER to find out that was wrong. After many hours in the hospital we found out, there were not entirely sure of what was wrong and needed to get another consultation . We found it was Epiploic appendagitis. Which I can say was something that I have never heard of. They are not sure why it is not getting better. Normally with time it clears up on his own and M should of been feeling some type of relief at this time, but at this time he is not. They are talking about doing exploratory surgery at this time to see if they can remove the part that is causing the pain, especially since it is effecting his appendix.
Please say a prayer for him and our family. The poor guy has been through so much in his life. He had the accident that changed his life, Surgery after Surgery, and countless procedures. I just wish he could wake up one day and be healed. Miracles do happen. Lets hope it happens for a man that deserves it.
Missing his Daddy.
We all miss you Daddy! Please get better soon so you can come home. The house is cold with out you.

Friday, September 28, 2012

Happy M Day!

I have told M numerous times that he should get on here and introduce himself. Since we haven’t had an appearance yet, I thought I would fill you in the love of my life our big M. I can’t say enough great things about this man. He is our family comedian, the love of my life, the best dad you will ever see, and fiercely loyal.

When I say my husband is the best comedian you will ever meet, I am so serious. He is the comedy nexus in our home. He can turn anything funny. I must warn you though; his since of humor is twisted and sometimes dark. That being said once he knows you he will make you laugh at things you never thought could be funny. We have been telling him for years to do standup, but the poor guy is crazy shy.

Along with his sharp whit, is his sharp mind. He is a genius. I am taking a super smart; we could get him a cape with a big G on it, that is how smart he is. He can remember just about any crazy fact that you ask him (but yet somehow he forgets the grocery list). He is a wealth of knowledge. Comes in handy more often then you think it could. 

I have already gone into the story of us, and how we came to be so I won’t make you sit through that all over again, but I will say I knew I loved him from the start. Being so young when we met, I didn’t recognize it, but I love him with all my heart and I have for so long. This man will fight to the death to protect me. He is always willing to help others when he can. He is the one person who can calm me down, I feel safe in his arms, and love him like no other.

M lives each day at home. Working outside of the home is not an option since his accident. That doesn’t mean M doesn’t work. He is a stay at home Daddy, and the best Daddy I have ever seen. He loves Pickle with the same passion and fieriness that he loves me. You have never seen such a happy little boy. They spend their day making crazy faces, telling stories, playing video games together, and cleaning house. I will be honest he is not the best housekeeper, but he is my housekeeper and I love him for it. He does so much during the day, it makes it so much easier when I go home. I am able to rest and play with my little man after a long day at work.

I hope that you were able to get a good insight to who M is from here. I know I have gone on and on and on. He is a great Man. There are no words to really say what a wonderful person he is. I hope that you see how great he is too.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Happy 2nd Birthday Pickle!!!

I want to say a very Happy Birthday to my Pickle!!!! We had his party on Sunday and Monday was the big day.

Sunday was his birthday party. Nothing big, just family and 2 very close friends. Needless to say we have a large family. We had a Yo Gabba Gabba Themed Party and I think it turned out really well. The poor boy did not sleep the entire day. Needless to say the poor guy was beat by the end of the day and so were we.
Happy Birthday Banner Out side the in-laws house

We took all of his gabba things from his bedroom and use them to help add some life to the theme.

The wall banner that we put up. I am saving this & putting it in his play room!

We Couldn't get a Gabba Cake anywhere so we got his Elmo, the next best thing for him.

Little Cake for the little man

Holding him back from taking the candles off

He loved loved everyone singing to him.
Blowing out the candles

Eating his cake

He wouldn't eat the cake until we got him a spoon!

Monday was his actually birthday, We had our 2 year baby well check appointment. He just got his flu shot. He is 34lbs and 36 inches tall. He is a big boy. After his appointment, We had breakfast with my Mother and a trip to Ikea. After the fun of shopping at Ikea we went home and just relaxed. I think we all needed some downtime. It was great weekend.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012


Thank you so much for everyone's kind thoughts and prayers. I was able to get the results of my tests right after the tests, and everything is all clear.

I can't tell you how much everyone's kind thoughts helped get me through it all. thank you.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Today's the day

Today is the day that I go for my mammogram. I can say with out hesitation that I am scared out of my mind. I was good until Sunday. On Sunday the fears started to creep into my head again, and this time I could not push them out. Today is very much the same.

Please send thoughts and prayers to us. Please pray that I finally calm down, and that the test goes smoothly. Please pray for the doctors and techs that are going to be working on me today.

I would ask that you pray for a cancer free result, but I know that is in good hands, and he will decided the path that I need to follow.

Thursday, September 13, 2012


I thought that I would put my thoughts and words down here today.  I am scared and worried and I don't know if I have to be. That is the worst part do I need to be worried. Let me go back.
I had my annual exam at my OBGYN, and she found a lump in my breast during the exam. I will be honest, I am scared of what this could be. I go on Monday for the mamogram and a ultrasound to find out what this lump is. I keep on telling myself there is no point in being worried until I know there is something to worry about. However, I can't help but be worried.
I am scared, I will be honest here. This is a scaring thing. I am scared of the unknown. I am 30 years old and I have never had a mamogram, I don't know what to expect. I am scared this could be cancer. If it is cancer what happens then? I am the only one working, will I be able to keep working or will I have to take Medical leave? How will we be able to afford the treatments? How will Pickle do with a sick Mommy all the time? Will I die?

There are so many questions that I have, and I don't have any answers.
How do I go on waiting until Monday for the test? I don't know how.

Friday, September 7, 2012

It is going to be a odd one.

Well this is going to be a odd post, Mainly because I am full of a ton of cold meds right now. What a better way to blog then full of drugs. We had a great weekend followed by a week of sick.

Friday night we went and took a nice long walk at the Mall. It was a nice trip. We got little man some pants and a a shirt that will look really nice, and are quite big so he should grow into them some what.

Saturday we went and had his 2 year pictures done and a family shot done (See Below) and then a nice lunch at Famous Dave's. I love their corn bread. It is one of my favorite things. After a nice lunch we went to see my Dad for his birthday, while Pickle played with his cousins.

Sunday was a busy day. We first went to chuck e Cheese, for the little man's first experience with a germ factory (and I think that is where we got our cold from). He had a blast. he did not quite get the games but he understood the running around part. I don't think M and I can take another trip! You need to be prepared to run a 10K in order to keep up with him. We followed by swimming and dinner at Grabbie's house (M's Mom). I think  he had the best weekend.I know we enjoyed ourselves. Too bad it was followed by some colds.

here are our pictures from the photos we had done on Sat. Hope you enjoy!
Family picture, I love his face in this one.

Family picture

Before he took off on us, he was on his way!

Sweet Boy

2 years old

The picture that went out to everyone.

Mommy and me.

Enjoy our weekend. We love comments!

Thursday, September 6, 2012


I have a cold. Thankfully it has not reached the rest of the house yet.  I am just hoping I can make it back into the office in the morning.

Friday, August 31, 2012

House Logged

I think we are all getting a little stir crazy around here. The heat here has been insane the last few weeks. We live in a rural area out side of Phoenix, AZ, and in the summer we are looking at temps that are 115+, and lately we have been getting there. The worst part about the heat is the humidity that we have had lately. It is relentless.

Typically in the summer you stay in side, the only time you go out side is if you have to, and if you are lucky enough to have a pool. Because of this we are going crazy in the house! I am lucky enough to get out to go to work, but my poor child and husband are not as lucky. They have made a few trips to both Grandma's homes for some swimming, and out to a store here and there, but that is it. We are a one car household, and because we live in a rural area there is nothing around in a short walking distance (and short is all you can do before you die of heat stroke). I decided this week that we all need to get out of dodge!!

Due to constraints on our budget we are staying in town, but we have a full weekend planned, we are going to have Pickle's 2 year pictures done one day, Swimming at Grandmas another day, and The final part of the puzzle is a day at Chuckie Cheese (the thought of the germs alone are already killing me, but you do what you got to do and can afford). I think our little man is going to have a great weekend and I am so excited for it.

I hope everyone enjoys labor day weekend!
The best toy around!

A daily thing at our home, Cryons, and ABC Worksheets.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Weekend over

The weekends seem to keep flying by for me. It like oops they are gone. This weekend we had M's little Sister A (17 years old) over for the weekend. I have known A for many years now, and I can honestly say she has grown up to be a great person. She took the time to play with Pickle and snuggle. She watched him so M and I could get some chores done and rest for a bit. She even baked cookies with me. She is just a nice young lady and has so many qualities that I hope that Pickle has some day. She is sweet, trust worthy, honest, giving, helpful, and a has a kind soul. I can't wait to see what she has in store for us in the future!

Pickle really enjoyed his weekend with his Auntie. He cried something terrible when she left on Sunday, we made up for it though. He got to go visit on Monday! We were in town on Monday to close on the re-fi for our home, so we  stopped over for dinner. Pickle had the best time in the world. He even said Grandpa for the first time!!! It was a great weekend and I am so sorry that it is over. I can't wait to do it again.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Lets Talk about us...

You have heard about our recent ups and downs, What you haven't heard about is the story of who we are, and how we came to be. Hop on you time machine and go back 14 years to the story of us.

M and I met while we were both in high school. We met while at work at a local Micky D's. I was a manager at the time and M was crew member. He was a junior and I was a senior. I can honestly say that M was incredibly annoying. He was a pain in my butt. I don't how else to say it. I could not stand the man. He will to this day say the same thing about me. It took about a year for us to tolerate one another. One night while working late and closing the restaurant down, there was a few of us on the drive thru head sets just talking about nothing, this got M and I talking. That night he got my phone number. Don't get me wrong it took a while for us to get to the actual concept of a date, but one day I just kissed him. I knew it just had to be done. We have had our ups and downs, but no matter what we were best friends first, and we remain that way to this day.

Fast forward… We graduated high school, we started college and working life….. M was on his way to work one day, and was rear-ended on the freeway. He was hit by 4 different cars. This caused some major issues in his back. He has suffered numerous surgeries, procedures and a implant to try and help him live his life. He has severe issues with daily pain and use of legs. This accident changed both of our lives impermeability and forever, but we made it through, and that is all anyone can ask for. M will never be out of pain again, and will have monthly doctor's appointments, and yearly surgeries for the rest of his life, but he has a life and for that I am grateful.

Fast forward again… More surgeries, more doctors and a few years… We decided it was time to move forward with our lives and get married (so maybe it was not a decision more like the solution to some crazy argument). On April 1st of 2006 we were married. We had a small wedding, but a great time. This is also the time we finally moved out of our parents homes and move in together (we moved about 2 months before the big day). I have some of the best memories from those days. We didn't have a couch or table or chairs the first week or so, we had dinner on blankets spread on the floor while watching TV., we lived each day like any other, work, home, work, home, doctor, work, home, it was a nice routine and some carefree times.
After about a year of marriage we thought about starting a family. After a year of trying we had no luck, and I paid a visit to my doctor. We discovered my PCOS. We tried for a few months on clomid and still no luck, we decided it was time to go see a specialist (during all this time we were looking to purchase a home, found one, bought it and moved). After meeting with the specialist we decided to proceed with IUI's, and inject able medications. After 6 IUI attempts on our final attempt we got our little man. I don't think you would of ever say two people so excited. It took us over two years and all of our savings, but it was so worth it.

Our pregnancy was plagued from the start. I suffered from Over stimulated Ovaries (from all the fertility drugs), and was in a lot of pain for a few weeks. Once we got past that the bleeding started. Small amounts at first, and we were assured that our little pickle (yes that is what we called him in-utero) was okay. Then was day it was like dam broke, and we rushed back the hospital. At this time they discovered a complete placenta previa, and I was put on strict bed rest (only allowed up for the rest room & a Shower). The bleeding continued and a few more hospital trips, During this time they discovered the previa corrected itself and could not find the source of the bleeding. As the pregnancy progressed I ended up in pre-term labor and would be admitted again, and sent home again, the bleeding or contractions would start again and the process was the same. Around month seven they then discovered not only did my placenta move slightly again over my cervix, but I also have a vasa-previa, making this process even more complicated. It was finally decided to put me out of my Misery (Yes, I was a terrible patient. I suffer from a lot of anxiety and could not handle all of this, I was irrational, irresponsible and selfish. If I could go back and change my behavior I would). Pickle was born in perfect health at 36 weeks to the day. lbs. 7oz, and 19 inches long. It was a great day.

Fast forward…. Little man growing up… this is where this blog picks up. Our little man will be 2 in September, and is a great kid. He suffers from some pretty bad reflux, and his speech is a little slow for his age, but he is a great great kid. Always happy and smiling.

Since you were kind enough to read all of this, I will reward you with some pictures of or lives.. I hope you enjoy and comment!!!!!
So long ago, M's Senior Prom

April 1st 2006

You can't tell, but I am 2 weeks Prego at the time!! And not that is not my beer, it is M's!

Fresh out of the oven 2010

All Clean

Going home for the first time.

6 months old

with our first kid Daisy Mae

So cute

Too much jumping

First time swiming

little Crawler

baby's second Christmas

At phoenix childrens for testing on his tummy

Easter Sunday 2012

I love this one